Thursday, November 20, 2008

Jitters

So I've got a blind date after work. I'm so freaking nervous. We spoke on the phone briefly last night ( I need to hear a voice) and he's going to give me a call this afternoon to plan our meet up. I'm figuring going for a drink will be the best option. We actually work a block away from each other so we'll figure something out when he calls. We both work in the same field so we pretty much just talked shop. We also both have parents of different faith so we spoke about our upbringing and what it was like to have two parents that had different religious beliefs. I got a good vibe. He was very polite and articulate and the conversation flowed well.

Why am I nervous? Simple answer: first impressions. 60 lbs later you'd think I'd be a lot more confident with my appearance and in some aspects I am- just not on the dating game. All I keep thinking about is that when we meet up, his first thought we'll be She's fat. Not ooh she's blond & blue-eyed. No no. FAT.

I've seen pictures of him & he seems pretty damned cute. The pictures that he's seen of me are head shots. Have I set him up to expect something different? How can I expect someone to look past my size if I can't? Am I just still thinking in the 60lbs ago tense? Will this be his first impression? I know, I know, if that's what he sees then why waste my time. I get it. I just can't help but obsess over it.

9 comments:

Roder said...

Good luck, I hope it goes well for you!

Karyn said...

I understand your nervousness about his first impression of you. I think it is natural for you to have those thoughts - after all, you were "fat" for longer than you have been where you are now.

But, you are a very pretty girl - I doubt you have to worry too much about it.

Good luck! I hope he turns out to be a fellow with depth and character who is not deterred by a few extra pounds.

Amy S. said...

How exciting! Quit worrying and just ENJOY. You are going to have a blast because you deserve it!

cdblueberry said...

You are gorgeous! The boy will be a fool to think anything else.

I hope you are a great time!

A True Heart Girl in Jersey said...

Oh Hon, I know the feeling so well. I always make sure they see two body shots of me because I can't stand to think I might see such rejection in their eyes when we meet face to face.

Fat4Now said...

Good luck, you will be fine.
I've removed that problem by not dating until goal. If there is a lady out there thats single in December 2009 then give me a yell lol :)

Natalia said...

You actually hit the nail on the head when you said "if that's what he sees then why waste my time"! You deserve somebody that will love you for YOU! Not for the size of your body or the color of your eyes and hair. You are an amazing person! If he's willing to judge you on your appearance and not take the time to get to know you, than I say good riddance!

I know easy for me to say right, it's not my blind date! I hope that it went well and I can't wait to hear all about it!

Gracie said...

how did the date go? You are beautiful so dont let the "weight" get to you!!

SeaShore said...

Hope everything went well!